_____I am getting tired of my sadness,
__________is that okay?
_____I am starting to pretend that you're fine,
__________do you mind?
_____my anger has eaten the best of me;
now I am farther from who you are
_____or you'd like me to be.
_____is it alright if I stop grieving for today?
_____If I stop thinking of your hardship daily?
_____they don't care,
and I'm getting tired of caring.
_____you know I do.)
_____Yes, I wish I were with you now.
I know you wouldn't wish it,
but somewhere you want me nearby too.
_____Wading the days with you,
_____waiting for dawn after we've counted
__________bombs like sheep.
Yes, we'll finish the wine off like there's no tomorrow,
_____because drunk, together, we wouldn't care.
_____But here I do, Mama.
I drink my wine in a pill,
_____tasteless as my sorrow.
_____here they don't care, Mama.
But I do, Mama.